FAT

Back to eat sleep eat sleep do nothing routine, surprisingly prelims doesn't seem scary to me now. I don't rely on people whom i can give a call and they'd come out immediately but yearn for new friend, or rather people who're not easy going & would not be contactable with just a call.
Weird? Time is passing so slowly now and tomorrow is POA paper 2, i didn't touch any of the POA notes today, & am not planning to also. Mom would be coming over to stay in a weeks time, i wonder would it be a good one or bad one. No going out with "friends" No slacking No blablabla, goes on and on. But yes to someone's company, yes to annoying scoldings, Doubt it'll be a good experience.

I suddenly have that thought of going into bowling very much, as in really into, but w/o money nothing could be done too. Studying's just so dull and boring, and i'm unsure if i could pull through this O lvl. Many people say it's a very good chance alr since i'm in express, but so what? I'm still one of the lousiest students among the express stream, what's so good bout that. There'd always be someone better than you, and keep on chasing after, taking over them would be your life, your goal?
I want to go on to another life, a life that is truly enjoying rather than not doing everyday and wasting resources.

WHATEVER, I'M SO UTTERLY SAD TO FIND OUT THAT I AM SO FAT COMPARED TO SEC2.